The pain

I have written a hundred and one blogs about being alone. Being lonely. Losing friends. One would think that everything once said and done would kinda end stuff. But it is not so. The pain never goes away. It stays rankling you in the wrong place. When you want to talk more about it. Tell somebody the vacuum in your heart. The hurt. The betrayal.

It keeps coming back you know. Haunting like a ghost who justs refuses to go away. Not killing you once and for all but only torturing you by staying with you and never goes away.

I am not a masochist. Please don't think I am. I don't take pain in hurt. What others do to me. crying all day long and whining in self pity. But I cant act. I don't want a double face all through my life. All said and done, i can lose a friend who does not want to stay than make her/him stay by pretending that i love her, want her with me and shackling her to me. I would rather let go. I did let go. But when it all comes back. When everything comes back to hit you in the face.

Shucks! You know what? In the end, it don't matter at all!!!

The world is round

I started off on my writing foyers with this id. Much piqued by the irritable sqaubble of a friend here, who claims every name on the universe is hers,and also by some friends of hers who seemed to think that names are patented by birth, I removed this id permanently.

But today, more mature, calm and thoughtful, I realize that if anybody has illusions about something, it is he/she who must change and never us. Why should anyone change for anybody else?

This blog weblink is again available to me and I shall enjoy it to the last..

Priyamvadha. engira naan.